Another Monday

Fat Amy says F*ck you snow! It's spring!

It's Monday again and wow, another shitty one. I haven't posted but mostly because I don't have anything to say lately. I've been searching for some inspiration and some motivation and haven't found it yet. I think this snow is bringing me down.

Anywho, I did get some more walking in because I don't plan on running the 5K but I do need to at LEAST be able to walk the damn thing! So I went back to the Metro park from last week and found a few more areas that I hadn't been to yet. The trail was easy to walk so it was Tessa-proof. That earned a big ole thumbs up from me!

And a thumbs up from Chuck. He's kind of a big deal...

I also read about another trail that runs behind a bunch of huge fancy rich people houses in my town so I went and investigated. I brought Sophie and she did alright. She was so excited she was whining and barking at the same time (which I did not realize was possible) all while doing her happy dance. We didn't go too far since she was about to stroke out from all the excitement. I went back later and walked the whole distance with Chris and it goes back a lot further than you would think and it looped around. We ended up spotting 10 deer about 20 feet away. I tried to lure them closer but my high pitched baby voices and waving did nothing to convince them I was safe and without a shotgun apparently so they took off into the woods.

NOTE: This scares deer away.

Actually thinking back, they took off into some even richer peoples backyards, not more woods. Speaking of those backyards one of them had a huge tennis court which was expected, what was not expected? The above ground K-Mart pool set up on it. I wish I had my camera to take a picture. They seriously erected a pool on their no longer used tennis court. It was kind of refreshing. Money can't buy class people.

Yes I've skipped two weeks of weigh-ins. I will be back on target this week, pinkie promise.

Peace & Love Homes,

T

Monday is a Biiiitch

Assbag. HAH. Monday is the worst day ever. On the bright side, I wouldn't enjoy Fridays if it wasn't for that bitch Monday.

Lay off the caffeine pills you speed freak!

This weekend I took my little pupperface Sophie to some parks and enjoyed some fresh air! We had a semi-decent walk. She is not a very good walking partner. She is what you would call reactive. Well you would probably call her a pain in the ass, but our puppy trainers previously told us she is reactive. Basically that is a fancy word for she is a ball of excitement and she just can't hide it. Just call her Jesse Spano. She barks and spins and her hair stands on end and she has no interest in listening to us, her pet parents. This makes walking difficult, as you can imagine! My dream when we finally got a dog after years of begging the hubs was that I would get a little pup to go on long walks with me and we'd just stroll down the street, just puppy and me! *cue corny 50's music*

Ideal Situation

What really happens:

There are no pictures to fully describe her craziness

This summer there will be more clicker training and counter conditioning and someday maybe she'll be my dream walking partner. In the meantime, I'm enjoying the treadmill in the basement watching Pretty Little Liars. Today I went farther than I have before at 1.5 miles! Believe me, I understand if this is unimpressive to you. I was super stoked at my distance and then my husband who has never used the treadmill before in his life jumped on up and did 1 mile on speed 8 in 10 minutes. Really dude? Reallllllly?

Today I did make myself proud for getting back up on that treadmill. Also for dinner I made some grilled chicken and veggies and it was really good. I think I did good today overall! Not good enough as I sit here and watch The Biggest Loser finale. Go newly skinny minnies! Damn these people barely resemble their old selves! *applause*

Well that pain in that ass pupperface is ringing her bells, that's my signal to jet.

Peace,
T

Edited to add a cute picture of Sophie and my hubs today at a park:

Happy Tuesday

I found that little nugget on the internet and just had to share. The Biebs sucks. 

Body Love

So this is pretty much the best thing ever.

Watch it.

Have tissues.



Love your body the way your mother loved your baby feet.

This is by Mary Lambert. She has an EP on Itunes and I highly recommend it! Her singing voice is beautiful and her songwriting is amazing.

A few parting inspiring pictures :)

My Mom & Music

I love music. Most music, I would say all music but that's not true. I hate metal. It gives me a massive headache. In addition to the fact that I live for the story within lyrics and I never have a clue what they are saying in metal, it's just sounds like a bunch of growls to me.

"Ballin"

I grew up listening to all kinds of music, all the time. I remember my mom would play the radio when making dinner, when cleaning up after dinner, when we played inside or outside there was always music in the air. She inspired me to listen to music but more than that, to feel music. It was her guitar that I found in her bedroom and began to play around with. I remember handwriting chords on sheets of paper and taping them to the wall in the basement so I could see them and just play them over and over and over again until I had enough chords to write my first song. I am still limited to those basic 4 chords but they have helped me create over 30 songs in my lifetime, about 10 that I still remember.

I was at my parents house yesterday and I had a moment. I have been finding so much good music lately and the first person I want to share it with is my mom. I recently purchased Macklemores album "The Heist" and fell in love. For those of you that don't know, Macklemore is a rapper, famous right now for "Thrift Shop" but he also has a song titled "Same Love" which is a song supporting gay marriage. When I heard it, I knew who I wanted to share it with. I sat down at the computer with my mom and played the song and realized I had tears in my eyes. Gay marriage is something that I support wholeheartedly and it breaks my heart that all people aren't given the same rights as I have but that's not why I had those tears. I realize now it was because I was sharing it with my mom. I was sharing it with someone who truly understands.Whether it's rap or folk, country or jazz she gets it. She feels it. She doesn't listen to rap on a regular basis, that's not really her thing. It doesn't have to be, that's what is amazing about her. This transcends music. She has always been open-minded and accepting of so many things. Things a lot of parents would shake their heads at. My sisters and I have been told over and over again how we have old souls, I believe we are like that because of the wisdom she's imparted on us.

I have played many songs for my mom both that I've fallen in love with and that I've written myself and it's because she shares that same passion and love for music. That same understanding.

 I am so lucky. She has always been supportive of me, my number one fan and I couldn't be more grateful. As I get older I realize there are far too many people in this world that don't have that. I am blessed. There are many more things to say about my momma but I'll leave it at that for now.

Mom, you are beautiful and amazing and I will never be able to thank you enough for supporting me in everything I do! No matter what life tells me your words are the ones that light my path and carry me though. I love you!

Her squeeze hugs

My Dog is a Murderer.

This sweet face:

Sweet Sophie

Just 8 months old and already a killer. It happened so fast! I let her outside to do her business and knew something was up. When I called her to come back inside she didn't come, even for her panic word. We trained her with a panic word so when we say "Quick" she comes no matter what because she was trained on baby food and thinks she will be treated with the best thing ever. When she didn't come I figured she had dug a hole under the fence and bolted to timbucktwo. I came out through our sunroom to get a better look and I saw her head! What the hell?! My first thought was that our magic word has lost its power. Second thought was SHIT, because that magic word is HANDY and I have no idea how to retrain her.

I walked out onto the deck to retrieve her and saw it...gross. Blood. That's honestly all that I saw because I immediately started crying. My little pup had lost her innocence. It was so disturbing. The hubs went out and cleaned up the mess and I put Sophie in her bed for practically the rest of the night.

I don't feel quite as traumatized after letting it sink in mainly because dogs will be dogs. Besides that stupid rabbit had it coming. The dumbass lived under our porch the whole 6 months we've had Sophie, who is part beagle and they are known rabbit killing machines hunters.

She's practiced this on many giraffes & porcupines

My husband suspects it was actually already dead. I suspect another sort of rabbit killer living in our midst since that is actually the second rabbit to die near our porch. The other we had found dead and it was before we got the monster.

Circle of life yo. Rabbits beware: Avoid the Grahams, do yourself a favor.

Peace,
T

Energizer Bunny I Am Not.

Energized! So Alive!

This girl represents what I am not. Hyper & bouncy. I have been hyper at least once in my life, but I don't think anybody has ever used the term 'bouncy' to describe Tessa. Not that I'm complaining, that is a weird term to use to describe somebody, am I right? I would like to be more energetic though, that I could use more of. I swear food is directly linked to my energy. I eat like shit therefore I am shit. Wait, I eat like shit therefore I feel like shit. That's more like it.

I may eat a Snickers but I do not snicker. I might however choke because I eat them in record time attempting to swallow before the guilt sets in! Eat it so fast, your body doesn't even recognize the calories! That doesn't ever work by the way.

I went on a cleanse once and it really was amazing. Hard to stick to, but I had so much energy! I swear these chemicals in our food and the carbs just deplete me. I'm like a draining battery cell with no charge. It's amazing to me that we consume such an enormous amount of calories yet are malnourished because the food we are eating has such little nutritional value.

Tessa hard at work. Yes I am a rabbit.

Here is a good slideshow of foods to give you some energy, I am adding these to my grocery list right now! So many healthy foods on there to treat my body well and give it that push. Beside looking sexy as hell and being all healthy and stuff, energy ranks high up there on my reasons for doing this list. So much to do, so little energy to even give a whoot.

Better watch out, a hyper -bouncy- Tessa is coming your way and I am going to annoy the shit out of you. Just a friendly heads up.

Peace,
T

Still Here

Happy bear says Hi Human!

Hi! I am still here, just ashamed of my lack of progress. I must hide my face from my loyal followers and cry, alone. I am bathing in my tears. So salty, it stings!! Okay I'm done being dramatic. My last weigh in was nothing to write home about, I gained 3 lbs.  still an overall net loss of 3, but get with it T bomb.

My work schedule has changed from 9 am to 8 am so now it is even harder for me to get my ass out of bed and it is still SO COLD.

What the hell winter, lay off! I've got a 5K to train for, don't you even care? Mother winter! Is that a thing? Or is it just mother nature. Yes, I know I have a basement, kinect, and treadmill. Stop giving me that look. Is it sooo wrong to just keep waiting for this weight to get tired of me and leave? Just run along now fat...go on... in the words of *Sheila...SHOO.

Damnit. Guess I have to really make shit happen. If you get what you put in, I am right on track. Time to up the ante. Challenge accepted. I think I'll go make some grilled chicken and veggies and nourish my body the way it deserves. Maybe if I keep telling myself I deserve it, I'll believe it someday.

We all deserve it.


*Sheila is my momma.

Peace homes,
T